Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Faith, Believe and Hope

With thanks to Soraya Silvestri for providing the inspiration. 
I took a photo of these stones during the Spring Choir Party at Soraya's house last May. 

We look ahead as a new year starts
Believing deep within our hearts,
That the world is a good, despite its sorrow
We must believe in a better tomorrow,

We must have faith and we must have hope
It’s really the only way to cope,
Believe that good will overcome bad
Believe that happy will overcome sad,

Out with the old year and in with the new
A Very Happy New Year to all of you!

Monday, December 29, 2014

Needing Solitude

I remember as a kid that I enjoyed getting up early on Saturday mornings to read or draw before the family woke up. It was a magical quiet time to enjoy being with my own thoughts and imagination before the day really began.

Our society often seems to view being solitary as a negative thing. As children, we’re encouraged to join in with the group and get along with others. If we are a loner, we are seen as a misfit who needs help.

After the busyness of Christmas with its focus on socializing with other people, I long for some solitary time. It’s not that I don’t enjoy people, but as an introvert, I find being with groups of people very tiring.

I enjoy my solitude and crave downtime to recharge, reflect and tap into my creativity. I am a morning person and still enjoy that magical alone time when everyone else is asleep. It is so rejuvenating and soul nurturing.

As Thoreau’s quote states, it can sometimes be even lonelier being with people than being alone. These days in our increasingly impersonal disconnected world, it’s easy to feel “lost in the crowd” which can be a lonelier feeling than being alone.

Solitude is the time I reconnect with myself and I need it to feel healthy and whole. It’s when I write and am most creative. Without it, I feel cranky, stressed and as if I’m only enduring and not really living.

Seeking Solitude
by Cathy Graham

Comfortable in my solitude, I slip into the zone
I seek out “me” time and love to be alone,
A quiet time to reflect and ponder
Time to create and time to wonder,

I am rarely lonely and feel lonelier in a crowd
Crowd noise overwhelms me, it’s way too loud!
When I don’t get my solitude, I’m like an old crone
I make it a priority to spend time alone.

Sunday, December 21, 2014

Am I Really 55 Years Old Already!

This week I had to put our red Siberian Tanner to sleep as he was 16 and could barely walk or see. His quality of life had diminished so much this past year that I knew prolonging his life was only prolonging his suffering.

I’ve had to put four animals down in the past four years, one for each year. You’d think I’d get hardened to it but I still find it just as difficult each time and cry over each one.

There is nothing like having a pet with their brief life spans to appreciate time passing.

And there's nothing like another birthday to make you stop and reflect on life so far. Reaching 55 years old today is hard for me to fathom. I still feel like a little girl deep down, even if I get a rude shock when I look in the mirror. Who is that old plump lady with the wrinkles around her eyes and the grey in her hair? Do I know that person?

Stores are offering me seniors' discounts and retirement magazine samples are arriving in the mail. If that's not proof of my advanced age, what is?

Somehow being in your fifties gives you such a different perspective than when you’re younger. All of a sudden, you realize just how short life really is and how time shouldn’t be wasted. Things you thought were important just aren’t anymore.

I don’t care so much about what others think of me as I used to. I have grown to love and accept myself more, flaws and all. That’s not to say that I don’t get hurt. I still do but I can let it go much easier. Before I would hang onto every mean word and wallow in self pity. What a big waste of time! Being a drama queen is so overrated.

I wouldn’t say I’m super adventurous with a bucket list that includes bungee jumping, deep sea diving or skiing down a treacherous mountain, but I am more open to new experiences and taking more risks.

While I still fear failure, I’ve learned that failure doesn’t necessarily mean the world will end. You learn from the mistakes and try again, smarter this time.

My wise friend Cecile said in our online chat this morning that as our bodies age physically, our minds and spirits are enlightened by experiences of friendship, love, loss, hurt and disappointment. Relationships become more important than things.

We realize that life will never be perfect and that bad times come to everyone along with the good. We learn to be more accepting, appreciating the good things and letting go of the bad.

Now I want to experience more, reach out more, live with more love and creativity, let go of past hurts, buy less material possessions and make a difference. I also want to help others appreciate their special gifts.

I might not change the world but I can make a small difference and leave the world a bit brighter because I was here. Isn’t that what most of us hope for?

Gee, I sure am wise after 55 years, aren’t I?

Friday, December 5, 2014

Being a Multipotentialite

For years I thought I had a short attention span since I couldn't focus on just one interest area and I got easily bored if I had to do the same thing all the time.

I have always felt pulled in a million directions at once and tend to flit from one thing to another like a butterfly who has to sample all the different flowers in the garden

As a result, I often have many unfinished projects cluttering up the house and my brain feels very scattered. Having deadlines and priorities seems to help but I still tend jump around from project to project.

It's so refreshing and a relief to find the site Puttylike by Emilie Wapnick.

I just love the whole idea of being a multipotentialite, a person who has many passions and interests and doesn't want to settle for just one.  

Throughout my life, I have had various interests of creative writing, blogging, drawing and painting, playing flute, singing in a choir, acting and set design,desktop publishing, graphic/web design, photography and scrapbooking. 

I love the articles at Emilie's site that reassure me that I don't have ADD and that it's okay to be passionate and curious about many things. It's also okay to be introverted and spend lots of time alone creating and exploring as I often thought that was a flaw as well.

To know there are others who feel the same is even more reassuring. I'm not crazy, after all! I'm an introverted multipotentialite.

I especially like this particular post by Emilie about how to manage being a multipotentialite to our best advantage and make it work for us.


How about you? Are you a multipotenialite?